anye West Describes Difficult Rap Comeback, "I Still Had A Lot Of Pain"


Troubled rapper/producer Kanye West explains his arduous return to hip-hop in a new feature he penned for the October issue of XXL Magazine.

Within the piece, Yeezy recalls crafting his resurgence at the start of 2010.

"I spent the last year improving every element of myself as a person. By default, my raps are way better now, because I'm at a point where I don't have to come up with lines--I just think of what I'm really doing and make it rhyme. January first of this year, I started back in the studio. I knew for a while I was going to start that day. I still had a lot of pain, and I needed to write that pain out, and it's on my new album. But toward the end is when the Kanye West music really came. Everything is a form of my music, but the style of 808s & Heartbreak is better served by Drake and Kid Cudi than it is by me. I think they could both carry that sound better than I could, and also being that Cudi helped design that sound. That style of music is very nighttime, very streetlights. It's, like, 'streetlights glowing.' All that." (XXL Magazine)

Ye also opens up about escaping the media spotlight after infamously disrupting country singer Taylor Swift's Video Music Awards 2009 trophy acceptance speech.

"The relationship with the public and with your fans is like the relationship with your girlfriend. How could I not, at a certain point, be like, 'I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been at the awards show. I'm sorry.' Not that I don't deserve to get beat up or change who I am inside, to make sure that that doesn't happen again...I knew I wasn't in a great spot publicly after the incident, but I would just block it out and work as hard as possible and let my work be my saving grace. In a way, I had thrown a Molotov cocktail at my own career, and it gave me an opportunity, for the first time, to go away and find out who I was. Because I felt very alone." (XXL Mag)